Wednesday, April 29, 2009
hey wunderfull people!!!
my apologies for the lack updates.
i've been pretty busy lately, juggling work, dance & other stuffs.
you may not be interested, but ive been "promoted" to Corporate Secretarial. :)
which means, tax and corp. sec. altogether, double duty in short.
well well, i hope i get increment :)
anws, proper updates will be up real soon!!
onelove,
eidah.
Thursday, April 23, 2009
......
i think my old sickness is coming back.
everytime i eat, less than an hour later, i'll end up in the ladies doing you-know-what.
my gf at work told me that i lost weight and i looked small.
hmmm..i dunno how true that is, maybe you guys can comment when you guys see me ehk..
&ive been having extreme headache these past few days..
is it due to insufficient rest or is there something wrong with me??
im so gonna make a visit to the doctor to have a check on me..
&right now, im thinking of nothing else other than ikersaidi.
he excites me :)
everytime i eat, less than an hour later, i'll end up in the ladies doing you-know-what.
my gf at work told me that i lost weight and i looked small.
hmmm..i dunno how true that is, maybe you guys can comment when you guys see me ehk..
&ive been having extreme headache these past few days..
is it due to insufficient rest or is there something wrong with me??
im so gonna make a visit to the doctor to have a check on me..
&right now, im thinking of nothing else other than ikersaidi.
he excites me :)
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
onelove.
'Cause, you could be anywhere you wanna
But you decided to be here with me
No coincidence it was meant to be '
im outta words.
he hushed me with his love.
But you decided to be here with me
No coincidence it was meant to be '
im outta words.
he hushed me with his love.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
special.
happy 32nd anniversary to my wonderfullllllllllllllll mama & baba!!!!
what more can i say, you both are the greatest human being no matter whot!!
&aren't you both glad to be blessed with your beeeeeauutifull daughters?=) =) =)
&aren't you both also glad that we're not the married ones?cause without us, the house will be superrrrrrrrrrr quiet.
hehe.
last but not least.happy 16th monthsary to us both!!
sayang saidi banyak-banyak ok.
&i think i made saidi ticked just now.tsk tsk..
Monday, April 13, 2009
flipside.
i tried so hard to be the nice one.
yet everytime i try to be nice, it'll end up in yells and quarrels.
i tried to be so hard to be the bear-the-burden one.
yet everytime i do, i'll end up swallowing my own misery.
i know allah give his people the tolerance to one's limits.
yet i feel as though he's pushing me.
i don't blame allah nor anyone.
i have only myself to blame for all the things that i've done
and those that i haven't.
why is it when i have already done something new, then things just come out of nowhere??
haven't i been a good girl?
or am i trying too hard?
im turning twenty-one this year. i have a full-time career.
does this means that i am responsible for everything?
i really can't take it anymore.
*to my family and friends...
i might be on depression and silent mode from now on.
if you don't wish to get insincere answers from me, please don't talk to me.
im begging you.*
yet everytime i try to be nice, it'll end up in yells and quarrels.
i tried to be so hard to be the bear-the-burden one.
yet everytime i do, i'll end up swallowing my own misery.
i know allah give his people the tolerance to one's limits.
yet i feel as though he's pushing me.
i don't blame allah nor anyone.
i have only myself to blame for all the things that i've done
and those that i haven't.
why is it when i have already done something new, then things just come out of nowhere??
haven't i been a good girl?
or am i trying too hard?
im turning twenty-one this year. i have a full-time career.
does this means that i am responsible for everything?
i really can't take it anymore.
*to my family and friends...
i might be on depression and silent mode from now on.
if you don't wish to get insincere answers from me, please don't talk to me.
im begging you.*
Thursday, April 9, 2009
wonder.
i left somw of you puzzled when i said i had an exam to sit for.
well, im done with it but now i gotta wait for the results.
so, i had to sit for a basic income tax exam.no, even tho its just basic, you're dealing with the government rules people, so evrything has to be right.word for word..
well, im done with it but now i gotta wait for the results.
so, i had to sit for a basic income tax exam.no, even tho its just basic, you're dealing with the government rules people, so evrything has to be right.word for word..
exam was held at tax academy at revenue house.
see. individual basic income tax. intake 5/2008
&all the answers i wrote left me green cause i wrote nonsense.yikes!!
okay bye!
okay bye!
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
he said.
bottomline is we are totally fine now.
&yes, i did asked him that question...
he said, "of course"
& just now, saidi said once im done with evrything, he wanna race me.
okay go!!!
&yes, i did asked him that question...
he said, "of course"
& just now, saidi said once im done with evrything, he wanna race me.
okay go!!!
Monday, April 6, 2009
commitment?
i met a beautiful soul last night and this was what she asked me...
"eidah, do you have a commitment with saidi?"
wow!! for once that question has never crossed my mind.
tonight, i'm gonna settle things once and for all.
i pray that evrything will be fine by tonight.
& that 1 question which im gonna ask saidi is...
"saidi, do you have a commitment with me?"
*i screwed today's paper, im feeling rather despaired and definitely stress*
"eidah, do you have a commitment with saidi?"
wow!! for once that question has never crossed my mind.
tonight, i'm gonna settle things once and for all.
i pray that evrything will be fine by tonight.
& that 1 question which im gonna ask saidi is...
"saidi, do you have a commitment with me?"
*i screwed today's paper, im feeling rather despaired and definitely stress*
Sunday, April 5, 2009
...
time: 0348am
date: 05.04.09
day: sunday
u must be thinking "what the heck is eidah doing blogging at this hour?"
well, simple reason: i can't sleep!!
just bear with me throughout this whole post okay. im just trying to let go of this feeling dat has been haunting me since the past days till now. &im gonna be frank and clear. so here i go...
earlier today, 04.04.09 (saturday), i was freaking pissed and angry with saidi. why? it's because of certain reasons...
- frankly speaking, the only day that i usually meet saidi in a whole week is saturday. let me repeat, saturday. i dont meet him on monday-friday cause i dont want to make him tired and such, knowing that he has to go work and has a long journey to and fro (tamp-sembawang). & i dont usually meet him on sundays because i usually go out with my parents on this very days.
- however, he dont seem to be tired cause i will find out later during the night (weekdays), that he is out with his friends, chilling.
- i dont expect him to tell me where his whereabouts are evrytime, but wat ticked me is the fact that he will texted me late (in a day) and by the time he reaches home, im already dead asleep. & how do i know? its because i will ask him to text me upon reaching home and the time wud be around 12++ am(midnight) and he has to wake up like at 0615am the next morning to get to work (oh wtf right?!)
- & im not blaming his friends for keeping him dat long. seriously. i cant blame his friends when im angry with him.
anyway, today(04.04.09) at bout 2100hr, his friends are meeting at his place before proceeding to esplanade to meet the rest at 2200hr(dont ask me who cause i really dunno)...well, he did told me in advance that he has a plan with them on saturday and asked if i was goona make any plans on saturday as well. but you see, whenever i plan something, it doesnt go the way i least expected it to be and saidi knows about it and adviced me to just go with the flow(wtf lahh?!!)
but when he told me about his plans, i asked him where they are going and he wasnt able to give me a direct answer. he went like "errmm..........somewhere ah.blom tau lagi" what's up witn the long pause?? if you reli don't know then just say u dont, i dont need the long pause there. so anyway, after he said dat, i made my mind that i didnt wanna meet him cause he's going for his drc at cdc in the morning and even though he's gonna meet the rest only at night, i was already planning to study for my exam.so you might have guessed, end of story but no...
he had his drc from 0800-1300 and i was also planning to go cdc to settle a few admin stuff and i told him bout it and he asked if i could wait for him and of course i say okay lah.its just a matter of a few mins mah.. but he ended his drc earlier and he surprised me at the customer service ctr and told me that he's waiting outside. so while waiting, he went to have a drink with his friend and when he came back, i was still waiting for my turn. i was getting impatient myself cause i had been waiting for 45min and my number wasnt called yet. bu i reamin calm and told myself its okay, ive waited longer than this before.
unfortunately, saidi wasnt patient enough. seriously. i didnt force you to wait for me or send me to nlb or whatever. you told me to wait for you but you ended your course earlier and had to wait for me. & dont start saying things like you've got other better things to do than to wait cause i didnt ask you to even accompany me and if you think you had a plan to drop by your club, then you just go ahead. i can walk myself to the bus stop and take the bus myself. isnt that what i had been doing all this years??
& if you dont like waiting, then guess what, neither do i nor other people. back when you were still working at raffles, i didnt even mind going down at night just to "fetch" you from work and accompany you back home. oh and for your record, i had to wait for you, all alone, at raffles.
why are you still not able to understand my response? you know by now that when something isnt right with me, my response will be different yet you take it lightly.
i feel really bad writing bout this and causing you not to have as much fun as you wished when you are out with your friends but please be fair to me.
you met your friends for the past few days on weekdays. i only ask for a day in a week to just spend time with you. am i being selfish now??
i really love you.like really really really love you. but i cant keep closing one eye and hurt myself on the inside and act as if nothing happen on the outside right.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
halo.
time: 0143 am
date: 1st april 2009
day: wednesday
what was i doing: sleeping like a rag doll (tido mati)
this young gentlemen texted me something so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeet =) =) =)
&i though it was sucha coincidence that the time i received the msg was
at exactly 1.43 (i love you geddit??) in the morning and on the 1st day of the mth.
oh wells.will update my activities real soon aite.
now must mugg for exam ahh.knnccb!!!
