Sunday, May 25, 2008
is it me or what??
i've been shedding lotsa tears these days dat i just feel like running away from this house to have a peace of mind..but i know that running away from your problems wont do me any good..am i the one who has been extremely bad towards my mum or is it just her being naggy about evrything?? ive tried real hard to make things go her way but i cant be giving in to her all the time..i need someone to atleast understand me and my needs. i clearly understand that i shud be working and yet im not.but its not as if im not looking for a job..ive seek high and low for a job to accomodate me and my family i future..sometimes i dont know what ive done wrong that caused her to be extremely angry at me..she say harsh things to me without even thinking.i just kept quiet all this while cause i dont cause any further qualms between us..but as soon as i put out the fire, it just keeps roaring in to me..can anyone please tell me what i shud do?? i need advice from evry different people right now.should i continue to be patient just because she is my mum or should i confront her and talk things out??i told my sisters bout it and all they said was to be patient.but they have no idea whats going on inside the mind of a 20-year-old lady..i was on the verge of giving up already but something stopped me..she likes to branch out on lotsa otha matters which is not even part of the conversation..from the house chores to my job-hunting and even to my bgr..what more am i suppose to do to satisfy her?? i just need some time to look for the right job and there she is pushing me in silent, inserting harsh words into my mind..im not tryna make her sound so bad in this entry but i really wanted to vent things out..ive had enough so far and more will come in future..it will never stop until she is really satisfied.im very sure of that cause ive been living with her for nearly 20 years now..
the only people whom i want to talk to and pour my feelings out to is definitely Shila and that bf of mine..but i know She is tight up with work and she is starting school soon..while my bf is busy working..i dont wanna make him tired listening to me whine all the times..but seriously, i need these 2 wonderfull people badly and i mean it.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
it's all about you.
Eversince the day you held my hands, you made me fall in love more than i always do. I treasure the times we spent together, be it good or bad times. You never fail to bring a smile onto my face and laughter into my life. Within this short period of time, you have been wonderfull to me. Thanks for enduring my crappiness, my lameness and all those things. You should know better. I'll cherish and continue loving you for as long as i can. Nursaidimuadzan, I Love You!!!
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
dancing dancing!!
sahidah.najihah
penari-penari V Entertainments.
&its us again.
eidah.yana
nurul aini.me
senyum :)
then pout :oSaturday, May 17, 2008
meet my happy family.
Even though she drives me crazy..
I still haf them to cheer me up.
Even though I have to tolerate her childishness..
I still haf her to talk bout serious issues...
and him to brag bout how Liverpool can suck-up at times.
Whatever it is, i still love her...
&i love them...
&even them.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Graduation Day '08
me.shiz.shiying.vic
yanah.me.shiz
them.
foreverLOVED.
nitia.ena.me.aishah
me&theladies.
&finally the brotherLOVED, Zat.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Have you ever??
Have you ever loved somebody so much
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
It makes you cry
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever tried to find the words
But they don't come out right
Have you ever been in love
Been in love so bad
You'd do anything to make them understand
Have you ever had someone steal your heart away
You'd give anything up to make them feel the same
Have you ever searched for words to get you in their heart
But you don't know what to say
And you don't know where to start
Have you ever needed something so bad
You can't sleep at night
Have you ever found the one
You've dreamed of all your life
You'd do just about anything to look into their eyes
Have you finally found the one you've given your heart to
Only to find that one won't give their heart to you
Have you ever closed your eyes and
Dreamed that they were there
And all you can do is wait for that day when they will care
Above all, i have found the one i truly love..
Monday, May 5, 2008
Happy 3rd Ungku Nayli Maryani!!!
Nayli&Mummy
Aunty&Nayli
the 2 unmarried siblings :)
Irfan was literally pushing Nayli away from him :p
this happens when u haf a 10-megapixel camera with you :D
Sisters act yaw XD
Ungku Nayli Maryani on her 3rd bdae!!!
i think he looks like my beloved cousin, Ritz
Nayli&Mama
Nayli&Mok :)
unwrapping presents time was the best time ever :))Friday, May 2, 2008
random.
models.
class.
my fierce supermodel look.
fetish lifestyle.
that's right.
make-up done by ourselves.
evryone squeeze!!!